Gap Pink Theory Novel Chapter 24 – I Want
I look at Khun Sam, she is paralyzed as if many of her internal pains have been ejected from her body.
Finally the day arrived. The day she told me about her true feelings for me. For others, ‘like’ can represent love or obsession. For her, it’s an equation and you have to solve it.
Like = Dislike.
‘I like you! Can you understand that?’
So if I solve this equation, it will have another meaning…
‘I hate you. Can you understand that?’
Painful tears flow from my eyes. Now, I’m not sure whether I should use my hands to cover my face or wipe away my tears. When I fully understand, I lose all my dignity.
“Hmm… I understand. Hhhh.”
“Mon!”
I run from the freezing room amidst the glares of the others. Khun Sam yells from afar to stop me, but I walk away without looking back.
I quit. I can’t stand being here anymore. Khun Sam hates me.
Hmm!
[Mon, are you okay?]
I hide to cry in the parking lot while I call Kate, because I don’t know who to call to vent. For me, the PP gang girls are like my close friends. I’ll tell her everything about what happened to Khun Sam.
“Khun Sam hates me.”
[Hmm. What happened?]
“I just gave her my resignation letter. And she said… Ughh…”
[What she said?]
“Who likes me.”
Silence takes over the other end of the line. Kate doesn’t say anything and leaves me to cry alone. Because she is quiet, I call her repeatedly to check that she is still on the line.
“Are you there?”
[I’m here… Just stunned… Now I’m even more confused. You just told me that you’re crying because PP said she likes you, right?]
“Kate, you know very well that she is the type who always does the opposite of what she thinks. Her mind is different from ours. It’s abnormal.”
[Doesn’t work… We need to meet, now.]
“I didn’t finish my workday… But I don’t care, I resigned anyway. Then I will find you. Where are you?”
When I remember that I quit, I get grumpy. I end my call with Kate, go back to the office, grab my things and leave while everyone is looking at me with pity.
As Khun Sam’s friends are all rich and own their own companies, they can go out whenever they want. Kate is the one who has the most difficulty going out, because she is an actress, but she manages her schedule to find a space to see me, because she wants to know about me.
Now, we’re all in the private setting of a Japanese restaurant. Of course… They always pay for me.
“I heard about it from Kate.” Tee acts like she’s thinking too much. “I think Sam’s equation shouldn’t be used in this situation as usual.”
“I agree.” Kate is snapping her fingers. “I think PP said what she was really thinking, it didn’t need to be factored into the equation.”
“I don’t want to agree, really. I’m so jealous.” Jim looks sad now. “Even though I have a husband now, I feel it.”
“Jim, stay on point.”
“Okay, okay. I will…” Jim sighs after hearing this from Tee. “I’m uneasy because I think Sam’s equation is not what it used to be. This time I think ‘Like = Like’.”
“Why don’t you think she hates me?”
“I told you before, she loves you… but what about your job… ah… ‘Lesbian Love’, what was it like?” Kate asks me butting in. I nod in response.
“Saw? If her work was approved, it proves that she really loves you.”
“I don’t understand.”
I see them smiling satisfied in silence. They can understand each other without saying a single word. So sometimes I feel like I don’t belong when I try to understand what they are thinking.
“See… We were confident that your work would be approved, because we already knew.” Tee starts and detail me. “The truth is that we talked to PP that you had sent your resume to my company.”
“And Tee went above and beyond.” Kate said proudly, as if she controlled everything behind the scenes.
“What did she do?”
“I told her that if Mon quit her company and walked into Tee or whatever with that cute little face and those heart-shaped lips, there would be hundreds of guys waiting for an opportunity to flirt with you, maybe the Tee win this game.”
“Also?”
Tee cackles satisfyingly in support.
“I felt like she was so unstable inside. We guessed that ‘Making Love with Lesbians’ would be approved… Okay, to tell you the truth, this theme should not have been approved. It shouldn’t even be posted on the company’s Facebook page.”
“And… it was approved.” Kate responds. Jim is now looking at his friends as he munches on some sushi.
“I am invisible now.”
“Just eat. Your work being approved means…”
“I will say, I will say… Let me talk, be quiet.” Jim waves his hands to interrupt his friends as he has a mouth full of sushi.
“PP likes you.”
“Which means she hates me.”
“There! I’ll hit you with chopsticks. Didn’t you hear us? We’re trying to say that Sam likes you. She loves You.”
Jim pretends he’s going to throw chopsticks at me and all I can do now is blink my eyes.
“Do you know what ‘like’ means? As a couple, lovers.”
Palpitation…
Palpitation…
My heart immediately races. They are waiting for my reaction now.
“But I am a girl…”
“Don’t be silly. We all graduated from an all-girls school and we know that one girl falling in love with another is normal.” Kate looks at me seriously. “Now, it’s your turn to clarify.”
Palpitation…
Silence takes over. It’s a lot of pressure, now I can’t move or breathe. They look to me for answers. The real answer is at the bottom.
“Mon, do you like Sam?”
“Me me.”
“We’ll keep asking you cunningly until the answer reveals itself.” Jim places his chopsticks on the table with a serious expression. “If Sam was your wife, would you be happy?”
“Is that what you call cunning?” Tee stops her and she makes a noise.
“Yes, if I ask directly, the question will be different.”
“Heavens…”
“So would you be happy?”
“Ahh…”
“How does it feel when you see her naked?”
Palpitation…
Palpitation…
Palpitation…
Throbbing, throbbing, throbbing…
This is a simple question that affects my heart, making it race faster and faster. I almost lose my breath, so I clutch my chest. Suddenly, an image of Khun Sam without clothes appears in my mind, my face gets hot… so hot that I know I’m red. I tend to get like this when I’m allergic to fried fish balls.
“You feel good and want to see more, right?” Kate says, smiling. “Mon, you can talk about anything to us, don’t hesitate.”
“I can’t feel this way about her… She has a boyfriend.”
“Do you know why we are supporting you even though we know she has a fiance?”
“Why?”
“Because she doesn’t have chemistry with Kirk. She doesn’t like anything about him. And she is different with you.”
“…”
“Her eyes shine when she’s with you.” Kate said smiling. And Tee hasten to say:
“PP looks happy.”
“It’s annoying to see that PP fell in love with another girl and not me.” Jim says, sulking. “But if the other girl is Mon and P.P is happy, then I’m all for it.”
They are looking at me and asking me at the same time without me being prepared.
“Do you like Sam?”
I bite my lip and get nervous looking into their eyes. I gather all my courage and sigh before answering.
“Yes I like.”
“Wow. We are no longer worried, if it were a book story, it would have as much volume as a cushion.” Tee sighs and hits his forehead.
“Now, you know how you feel. We must go to the next step. You know Khun Sam is a complicated woman. She won’t be the first to cave in.” Kate said seriously. “You should be first.”
“I’m home?”
“Do you want to be in a relationship with her?”
Palpitation…
Palpitation…
Throbbing, throbbing, throbbing…
“Of course, if possible.”
I don’t have confidence when I talk to them. I feel ashamed…
“It will be possible, if you are the first to ask.”
“To ask?”
I’m so shocked my eyes pop out. “Imp…impossible. I can not do this. It’s just our assumption that she doesn’t hate me.”
“She loves You. But she will never say.” Jim said as he rests his chin in his hands. Then she looks at me. “Please help our P. P… I know it’s difficult and embarrassing, but if you don’t initiate it, it won’t happen.”
“Sam will be here soon.” Tee said with raised eyebrows.
“I better go home.”
I’m getting ready to get up, but Kate grabs my shirt and glares at me.
“You need to stay here, young lady.”
“I can not do this.”
“When the time comes, you will make it. Trust me, she will say yes, of course.”
Tee and Jim say at the same time.
“Truth!”
Not much time passes, approximately 15 minutes and Khun Sam arrives. Tee looks at his cell phone and sends us a signal that Khun Sam is coming. Then they tell me to leave the restaurant.
“If you’re here with us, you won’t be able to ask her. Go outside. Have a good talk, we will wait for the result here.”
“I’m so clumsy. We had a fight when we were at the office.”
“Time to make amends then.” Kate pushes me out of the restaurant. “Believe me, she is very easy.”
“I will cry.”
But Kate doesn’t care at all and just waves goodbye. While I’m confused and wondering what I should do, Khun Sam suddenly appears in front of me and calls out to me lightly.
“Mon.”
“Khun Sam.”
We both stay silent for more than 2 minutes, she can’t take it anymore and so she asks me first.
“Why did you leave the office and leave your post?”
“I had already resigned.”
“I didn’t give permission. Is it really that uncomfortable to work with me?” She said sadly. And it makes me feel guilty. If I hadn’t talked to Kate and her friends, I wouldn’t feel this way.
“I was feeling uncomfortable a few days ago. You are very mean.”
“But today I approved your work and passed you through the training program. Why would you resign?… It was because I said I liked you, right?”
I look at her confused. Half of me is still believing her equation, but the other half is believing what Kate and the others said.
“Because when you say you like it, you really hate it.”
“How am I supposed to tell you to believe me?… I hate you.”
“…”
“I hate you so much!!!!” She said seriously, but too seriously for my liking. So I feel sad and disappointed.
“You hate me…” Tears form in my eyes again. She hurries to correct.
“So I like you!”
“…”
“Oh! So, I hate you, I like you, I hate you, I like you, I hate, I like… God! Please realize that now I like you very much and hate you very much… Whatever, please don’t resign.”
“Do you want to be my girlfriend?”
“I want.”
“…”
“What did you say?”
I said without thinking, I asked too quickly and Khun Sam answered without realizing it. I shut my mouth and now I’m ashamed. So I wave my hand in refusal.
“Forget it.” I tell her. I prepare to run away, but Khun Sam grabs me by the hand.
“You asked if I want to be your girlfriend, right?”
“Ahh…” I’m going to cry with embarrassment. Should I be shocked or happy? “Khun Sam, please don’t look at me.”
“S…really?” Now her tears are flowing. “I will cry.”
“Why would you cry? Was it so bad that I asked you out?”
“Not.”
“Hum.”
“Hum.”
We are crying together.
“Why are you crying?”
“Huh… I’m happy.”
“…”
“Happy to be your girlfriend.”
“Are you really OK?” I wipe her tears and she wipes mine. “I have nothing good to offer you.”
“Yes he has. It’s okay, I want to be your girlfriend, but I’m afraid you won’t feel the same way.”
“Khun Sam.”
We hug. She is my first idol, my first boss, my first sister and my first girlfriend. I’m so happy I can’t even describe it. She hugs me and strokes my back.
“I am so happy. I was scared to death that you would quit.”
“Are we in a relationship?”
“Now you can’t cancel.”
If it were a novel… it wouldn’t fit on an A4 sheet. We’re not dreaming now, are we?
But it’s real…
Now we are in a relationship.
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